Feeling the guilt which may have been self inflicted or am I just dramatizing a small matter.
I just wish my action will not cause others to suffer for the consequences, knowing that partly it is my fault.
I wonder why is it so hard to get people to join in for something good but may not be as fun but for something which is pure entertainment, people can pay thousands to join.
It is always hard to make a change, go against the flow, what more pulling people to go against the strong current with you.
At times, I can not help it to feel demotivated, but I remain strong or pretend to have a strong facade to face the challenges ahead. Where have my optimism self gone to?What happened to everything happened for a reason?
But I know deep down I have screwed up in organizing simple things which may have cause certain negative consequences. Call me selfish, coz I think at that point I am selfish. I did not thing of the other party. Hence the guilt and the troubled heart.
People call these little bums along the journey and it should not stopped me. I hope I will not be affected by this and tomorrow would be a better day.
