Alright, I have just made my pledge 2 days ago to start studying, stop Damon-ing and be update my blog. But it doesn't seemed to be working! I have finished season 2 of Vampire Dairies without the episode 6 and episode 11. Finally waiting for the season finale episode. It was saddening to see so many people killed in episode 21 just to keep their loved ones alive. Lucky Elena, so many people is willing to die for her. There is so much about strong friendship bonds portrayed in the show.I am sure I would do the same to protect my family but I am not sure if I am ready to sacrifice myself for friendship, maybe I will depending who they are. It is pretty hard to identify those who are worth it. It just gets harder. With trust as an issue and being cynical the other, it is pretty challenging to allow myself to love and talk about issues which are bothering me. Luck me that there are a few close friends who are willing to listen, even so I am not sure I want to pour out my emotions and thoughts. I have always been listening what others have to say, share and I question myself when will be the time I decide to let others listen to me. Part of me doubt that people would want to listen and past of me question, does it even matter to talk about it?Talking about trust, I am in a situation where by I am not allowing myself to trust the person I am spending most of my time with. There is always doubt or perhaps it is expectation towards her reaction and response towards certain things? I am not even sure. I just notice the annoyance in me with the way she is reacting and behaving. Maybe I am not allowing myself to accept the person she is. But I rather take it as we do not click. It was thoughtful of her to offer her assistance but that was not enough. I still do not trust her! Ah well, we just do not click! However, I am sure that her existence in my life and being here with me has her purpose. Afterall, isn't everyone in our life has a purpose? Just waiting for the final product of what I allowed her to turn me to. So much for trust and friend's issue.But life goes on!And right now! Am in a mission to look for those mesmerizing grey/blue eyes, not contact lenses, those of Damon Salvatore. Yes! I am another victim of the craze of Vampire Diaries Damon. We need a little fantasy to make life more exciting, not? So tonight let this good-evil vampire with a wink that kills Damon Salvatore to be in my dreams. =)
Plenty of assignments and journals waiting for me to write and read and yawn at understand! Plan for tomorrow, sit in the library and read through some journals and start writing my summary of 1000 words? Let's hope my plans work out. Please "me" make my life easier!
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