As I Ponder

As I sat alone and ponder, why can't ex-lovers be friends again? Why sometimes a beautiful friendship can be ruin and there is no respect left for the other. I am only speaking on behalf of myself and taking my story as the case study here. As I was packing my things in my room, I came across things and short messages given by my Ex. He was a good partner to me. Very encouraging, protective, caring and loving.No man is perfect and of course he has his flaws which I learnt to accept them. Recollecting the past, I do remember he being a very nice partner and friend who is always there by my side. But why did everything turn so sour when the relationship ended? Where is the celebration of two friends becoming friends again?No one is at fault when he fall out of love with me.I am not at fault for loving him that much that time. However,till today I find it hard to be friends with him again.words he said was indeed hurtful, but that is what people do when they are trying to protect themselves and their actions, as much as I disagree with them.Why can't I accept him as friends again? Is it really only I do not respect him as much as I do before this or I do not know how to face him? 

I am thankful that we ended our relationship when I heard of his unpleasant deeds ( based solely on my opinion). If I am still his good friend, I would have reacted differently, wouldn't I? I would have stood up for him or try to put some positive input to the stories.I may even try to talk things out with him, and perhaps give a correct him if he was wrong. This could all happen if we choose to remain close friends, but I gave that up, reluctant to take that challenge. Till today, I still could not accept the words he said to me.Each time, when I felt the urge to talk to him, and try to be friends again, there is something holding me back. I didn't like this feeling at all at the same time I know I am not ready to be friends again. All is left to do is wait and see.

At least, there is no anger and sadness towards him anymore. =) And definitely, no more relationship love towards him. The only thing that made me ponder was the quote below and is it really impossible to celebrate two friends becoming friends once again.

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love"