Talked to various people lately. Need so guidance of what I should do and whether I should follow my heart or my brain.But in the end, I know I should not give up.I owe myself an explaination. I am living in denial. I can't accept and let go. There are so many things i want to tell him. I wish he would listen to me. And I 'm giving it a try. No matter what I will. Now I know what I should do. I maybe wrong. But I know I needed to do it. I pray that the big man up there will give me strenght. Perhaps things happens for a reason, a good reason some may say. But God only help those who help themselves. I'll never know whether my actions are right or wrong.Or am I ready to accept the second or perhaps the third wave of pain. All I know is, I need to do something for my soul to rest in peace. The truth hurts and lie is worst. I know I have to be honest.I need strength to be strong. I cannot be so emo..I need to move on, i need a closure, I need to stop blaming myself. May i be free from this mental suffering, may I be happy once again.
'When the heart and the brain is not compromising, i wish he was here to tell me what to do"
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