Sunday, April 18, 2010

100th post

Well this is my 100th post, can't believe it is still pretty emotional! I have a confession to make,the truth is :

  1. I want to be someone baby dear today, when I was in the cinema, brought back some old memory when I always go to the cinema with Mr. Ex.
  2. I feel kind of lonely inside today, and yesterday and a few days ago when my feeders are no longer able to feed me with the attention I need.
  3. I forgot what is it like to fall in love and have some hole to fix.
  4. I miss a certain people out there and each time when I saw 11.11 on my laptop I wish that certain people will miss me too. At least last time I was pretty sure it would be Mr. Ex missing me..Ptfff!!
  5. I am sick of all my hormones controlling my emotions, hence what is written about Mr. Ex is all the work of my hormones.
  6. I miss being someone's baby dear.
  7. I miss home and I am homesick.
  8. I have never been so lazy in my life when it comes to studying..*smacks forehead*
  9. I don't want to think about Mr. Ex each time I see his name appear in my FB but I somehow did.
  10. Irritability.
  11. I want to be alone most of the time.
  12. I hate to cry coz my eyes and nose hurt so badly and when it is not worth it at all.



I have too much thoughts in my head. And I am having superego and ego ( terms found by Mr Sigmund Freud) to have my rationale and morale stopping the hormones from manipulating my thoughts. By now, in this 100th post i learnt.

  1. Let go and move on for better things in life.
  2. I have friends who love me when sometimes I forget to love myself.
  3. I have feeders to feed me with attention when I need them and I should appreciate them.
  4. I think I can express myself better than I thought.
  5. I am more positive each day.( still hoping that optimism will stay long)
  6. I learnt that my recovery period from each emo-ness caused by Mr Ex is shorter and shorter. *thumbs up*
  7. I have just found myself two good new buddies whom I trust and gave my blog address to.
  8. I want to meet more people.
  9. I called back more often =)
  10. I have good thoughts about Mr. Ex and want him to be happy always with New girl though at time I try to make myself want them to break up..
  11. I found out that I have a hidden passion towards dancing.
  12. I stopped letting Mr Ex continue to influence my emotions.
  13. I want to love myself more.

and at the end I must remember

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5 comments:

  1. juneyApril 18, 2010 at 2:50 AM

    DEAR .......
    this is superb. a good touching sad emotional 100th post. i like emo stuff. don't get me wrong, i am emo too, and this means we express ourself super damn well.
    it is okay to want be loved, who doesn't? it is okay to be wanted. who doesn't? it is okay to want things that are beyond your reach. why not? it is okay to have faith and hope, otherwise life would be as empty as the darkness in the sky. it is okay to think back and relive our past memories, as long as we have our two feet on the ground.
    it's the best to have friends whom we can share our feelings and thoughts with and not be afraid that we will be judged whatsoever.

    i heart you.

    love, by the first person who commented in your 100 th post,
    junejunejunejunejunejune :) JUNE

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  2. Simply MeApril 18, 2010 at 3:09 AM

    JUNEY DARLS,

    Thanks thanks thanks!!!!!!! and hearts hearts hearts...yea, i do miss being in a relationship sometimes. I am super glad to have come a little closer to you and mally..love you girls..and everything is always ok as long as i have friends like you as my safety net to fall on =) HUGSSS!

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  3. Malessa RzApril 20, 2010 at 3:23 PM

    Second is me me me me Mally Mally Mally Mally! :) Wee!

    Hang in there Shewwei. Good thing will come to those who wait and I am pretty sure God has better plans for you. I am sure Mr.Ex is still lingering in your mind but believe me, the day will come where he wont be lingering in your thoughts anymore. And that time, it means it's the right time to be FRIENDS. As hard as it may seem, everything happens for a reason. I am not a strong believer when it comes to heartbreaks because I dont heal easily. I actually still have this deep grudge about my Mr.Ex because he cheated on me. It is something that I can never forgive but it doesnt mean that I love him. He has been long gone and trust me, you will be better in no time. Give yourself time and be fair because when there's a will, there's a way.

    Love you Shewwei and I love you too Juney! HUGSSSSS! :) You can definitely count of us, Dear!

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  4. Simply MeApril 21, 2010 at 1:30 AM

    Mally, thanks for being such a wonderful fairy lingering around, i could still remember the message you send to me when u say mr Ex dating New girl and wondered how I felt...it touched my heart so deeply..thanks to the break up i get to know you better...yea, i find it hard to be comfortable around Mr. Ex, but one day I will be good with him again as friends.I think I am healed, and i just need to forget certain feelings he gave me, it is not easy but it will happen, I have u gals to support me, perhaps this break up did more good that bad to me in a way...love you girls and welcome mally to my wordy emo blog, there is this guy followed by blog, but i don't know who is he...weird...thanks for dropping by Mal..


    LOVE MALLY and JUNEY for being such wonderful shining stars shining on me =) muax!!

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  5. Simply MeApril 21, 2010 at 1:31 AM

    Mally and Juney, you gals are number 7 too...wheee~ =D

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